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Here’s an observation: Why is it getting so difficult to find someone to say at least… Interesting? Someone that just doesn’t want a one night stand? Someone that is really worth of you?
Why is getting so difficult to connect with someone on a world so connected as ours? Because most of these connections are empty, they don’t have a real meaning in real life, they’re just there sitting on your social networks acting as figures to look like you’re connected and popular.
But I’m talking about real connections with people, the type you connect almost instantly, eye to eye. These are becoming so hard to find that if you do find one, hold on to it. Once I found this type of connection. From the moment we met until we said our goodbyes were 3 hours of nonstop conversation. We talked about every single subject you could possibly imagine.
That is just one of the main characteristics I like in people, probably the most important one. Once I have that, it feels like I don’t have to worry about anything else. I begin to admire that other person and it seems that this person pushes me to be the better version of myself. I know I can be me, without any false pretension.
My friends say I’m too picky and maybe I am sometimes, but I’d rather choose than be with someone that it’s not worth of me. However, the last time I felt that special connection was in 2008. From that time up to this date I still haven’t found anybody else that would top what I felt.
I won’t give up finding it but as times go by, it gets tougher to find someone to have a real connection in life and not through a computer or a phone.
One year have passed by. One. One year that I have been back in Brazil. One. This year was a great learning experience to me. I’ve broaden my horizons. And it hasn’t always been easy to be back. Many times I’d wish I didn’t. But somehow, I believe that everything happens for a reason. Right now, I’m where I’m supposed to be.
Never think that my coming home was a step back. It never was! It is, in fact, a step forward. A step forward to achieving and conquering my goals, my dreams. Know for sure that I’m working towards them. They keep me moving and dreaming that one day I’ll reach them. One day. I’m in no rush at this moment, as I took the year to blend in Brazil again. Of course, I miss LA very much. A place I called “home” for nearly five years. Therefore, be sure, that one day I’ll be back in LA. One day.
I dedicate this post to all of my friends across the US, old and new. Because of you, I had the best 6 years of my life. It was a time full of love, happiness and joy. I cherish every moment we spent together and look back to them with a big smile on my face. Thank you all so much for being a part of that. Without you, it wouldn’t definitely be the same.
Love & peace,
Exactly one year ago I launched my very own website ‘Beets & Beats’, in which I pair recipes with great music. I couldn’t be more proud of it because I put together two things that I am passionate about it: cooking and music.
During this year, I made delicious recipes, friends sent me theirs, I connected with inspiring people and let the music flow through it all. This is, without a doubt, my best reward.
‘Beets & Beats’ is very special to me, something that I really enjoying making because when you make something with love, everyone can see and feel it. That energy always come back to me, which makes me a very happy person and drives me to keep on doing more.
Happy Birthday, Beets & Beats for this amazing first year! Here’s to many more years to come!
PS: You will find the recipe for this delicious and healthy carrot cake on the site!
It’s almost time to go for good. Six years have passed like in a flash light, with ups and downs but overall an amazing time and life experience. I’m moving back to Brazil…
I’m closing a big chapter in my life now in hopes that a better and brighter one will begin soon. In 6 years, I learned a lot about myself, I experienced many things, I made friends for life, my “USA family”. For that and much more, I am very thankful. I am very thankful for my family, for their continuous support in everything I did here. I am very thankful to each person that have crossed my path during this time. You are all very special and without a doubt filled my heart with so much love and laughter. Thank you! I’ll definitely miss you all very much. I’ll also miss some of the places I lived or had the chance to visit. Those will be my constant memory.
There is no doubt that I am very sad to be leaving everything, it’s not easy, in fact, I’m sure that it’s one of the most difficult things I’ll ever make it in my life. The decision was very difficult to make it and to accept it but now I’m at peace with it.
Deep in my heart, I thought I would never leave, that things would work out differently than they actually did. I know I couldn’t predict what would happen in 6 years but I’m happy with the way things turned out, it was all worth it. Just really sad to say goodbye so I’ll say it now: Goodbye LA, goodbye USA.
I also know that now I have to look for a new future, a new life that is about to begin and that I’m about to embark on. Says the song “Closing Time” from Semisonic…
“Closing Time – open all the doors and let you out into the world…
Closing Time – time for you to go out to the places you will be from…
Closing Time – every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end…”
Recently after reading one of my blog posts, Cameron Von St. James reached out to me with a story of his own about his wife and how he became a caregiver. It’s such a touching story that I am proud to share with you all. And please, feel free to share with your friends & family so that way we can spread the word out, the word of love.
Fighting Cancer with Hope
I will never forget the day my wife, Heather, was diagnosed with malignant pleural mesothelioma. On that day, November 21, 2005, she became a cancer patient, and I became a caregiver. Nothing in my life had prepared me to do the job. Just over three months prior to her diagnosis, our daughter and only child, Lily, was born. In our minds, we pictured spending the season preparing for her first Christmas and celebrating the holidays with our loved ones. Instead, our lives changed forever.
The reality of being a caregiver set in before we even left the physician’s office that day. We learned a little about mesothelioma from the doctor, who also referred us to a specialist. We had three choices: a regional hospital that lacked a mesothelioma program, the local university hospital and a specialist in Boston. My wife sat in shocked silence, not expressing interest in any of the choices. She was in shock, unable to comprehend all the information being thrown at us. I, however, did not hesitate, and told our doctor we would see the specialist in Boston.
For the following two months, the cancer shattered our daily routines. Before the diagnosis, Heather and I were both employed full-time. After the diagnosis, I dropped down to part-time, and she was unable to work. I spent my free time making travel arrangements, taking my wife to appointments, caring for Lily and traveling to Boston. My ever-growing to-do list started to overwhelm me. I was afraid Heather would die from cancer and that I would find myself a widower, raising my daughter alone. I felt helpless but did my best to become a rock for Heather’s sake.
Luckily, friends, family and even strangers stepped up to help us. The biggest piece of advice that I could give to others going through a similar situation is to accept help whenever it is offered. There is no room for pride when there is a life on the line. Members of our community offered financial assistance, love and comforting words. We will never forget these miracle helpers. They reminded us that we were not alone and helped lighten our load.
Being a caregiver is undeniably difficult. It was the hardest challenge I ever faced, one that I could not simply walk away from. If you are a caregiver, do not let emotions like anger or fear take you hostage. Give yourself permission to have bad days, but never stop hoping and use all the resources you can to keep your sanity.
Our lives did not return to normal for years. Heather beat mesothelioma through radiation, surgery and chemotherapy, and she remains cancer free after seven years. The time and stress management skills I learned as a caregiver helped me succeed when I went back to school two years later, and I graduated with high honors. I even spoke at my graduation, and Lily and Heather cheered me on from the audience. Thanks to our experience with cancer, I learned that I am capable of more than I ever imagined and to never give up hope.
Cameron Von St. James